I don't mean to speak out of turn here, but things are kind of dead at Silicon Sasquatch. The why of it might not matter to you, but in an effort to be transparent, here's where we're at:
- Aaron's working and living his life in Portland. I'm not sure what he's been up to, actually, which bums me out.
- Doug's leaving to go teach in Japan in a matter of days.
- Tyler's back home in the States for a brief visit, but he'll also be going back to Japan.
- Spencer is, presumably, doing the Seattle thing.
- My work and social lives are both great, but when combined, they're all-consuming.
That's all well and good. I'd argue that we're all in better places right now than we were a year or two ago, and ultimately, that's probably what matters most.
There's just one problem: I miss this blog like hell.
For me and Aaron, and for Doug too, this site symbolized our post-collegiate aspirations. The story's old-hat by now and way too commonplace in our generation to have any significance to a third party, but you can imagine our situation: we were all broke, depressed and -- more often than not -- stuck living in our parents' proverbial basements. (Very few houses have basements these days.) Like kids, we wanted to pretend that we could fulfill our dreams. It's probably not coincidental that those dreams revolved around a product whose core appeal is escapism.
If I were a pessimist, I'd say we had been incredibly naïve over the last few years. But that's not true. We've gained so much from building a product together, from the countless meetings and hundreds of hours spent writing and editing, from both the close calls and the landmark achievements.
As a person grows older, they realize that wisdom can be defined as an increased awareness of how little a person is capable of knowing. We had high hopes for this blog -- dreams of wish-fulfillment, of self-made success, of a career founded in idealism and passion.
Looking back on what we've done with this blog in less than three years, I'm shocked at just how big an accomplishment it is. If we hadn't had Silicon Sasquatch, Aaron and I would have probably just kept playing World of Warcraft. We wouldn't have learned nearly as much about entrepreneurship, journalistic integrity and creative problem-solving. Without our self-imposed editing standards, we'd be a lot more attached to our writing, and the writing we'd produce would be so much shittier. We wouldn't have a real, tangible, hard-copy book with our names on it. We wouldn't be published authors. I can confidently say that I wouldn't be where I am today if not for the hard work we all put in on this project.
So why am I writing this? Why here, and why now?
I feel like I just came home after decades abroad and discovered some old, forgotten car caked in dust and cobwebs in a dank garage. It used to be something, and what it used to be still resonates with me today. And I bet if I learned to appreciate that, I'd find the direction and willpower to fix it up and make it better than ever.
So, guys -- what do you think?
It'd have to be different this time around. We'd have to embrace some big changes and accept that we won't be able to do things the old way. But when I think about what this blog represents for me, and all the hope that it inspired in me through some of the roughest years of my life -- I mean, come on.
Why the fuck not?